sometimes I feel if I like something specifically and i want to get it I juz feel like I really should get it no matter what...and ther's no way that I shouldn't get what i want ..that's how i feel everytime I want something ..that's probably the explanation when I want twilight i suddenly felt the urge that ahoehow in anyway I know I should and would get it no matter what happens and I realize that it means I am really obssess of wanting and getting things no matter what will happen ..I absolutely cant explain this feeling inside me when wanting things when wanting to own things that are especially not possible to have it..and that only made it worse for me because for some reason I cant have that thing and i'm still thinking of having it even i its impossible to have it.